LONG TIME GONE

c 2010 Tristan Winter

Were it how you once and never

            then again

I brushed my face besides yours not for courage but for

   the assurance -the words I thought you knew

but your courage was only

against

And so I abandoned your courage I walked far away

what cannibals are these I laughed

            my courage was always solitude

    my secret: I can live forever without your destruction

I

Was

               Not

             Here

Coagulations pick your scabs

   be afraid

of your slavering

for life, having lost and wished for

    love

AT ALL COSTS

    instead of which

a lifelong

longlong

longing

became o god finally give me something just this once;

            venengenge heaped upon anyone please

Couple thousand years passed

     came a postcard from Kalmukia

How pigfucking angry you love to be

about the pork chops you devour while defending the pork

But of course you had taken my house I had no square inch to be

      or think

you’d filled my fridge with cow food ate my sandwiches smoked my smokes I’d rather live outdoors rain or shine and will travel all my mind to elude your appetite.